"skinny love"

It's normal to grieve when a relationship ends. It's not normal to not get mad. 

I don't get mad. people will say to me "when you get to the point of being mad at him you will feel better." 

well I call bullshit. Being mad causes bitterness which contributes to depression. And I sure as fuck don't need anything else contributing to my already out of control depression 

I take what I learn from a relationship and move forward. It may take a very long time to move on but at least I will be wiser about what I do and do not want. This is why every serious relationship I've been in has been better than the previous one. The downside? It takes SO much longer for me move on. Especially this one. I can't even imagine being with anyone else right now. but I have no choice so I'll eventually move on.

It's very important to me to stay friends with someone who was such a big part of my life. I don't want to lose a friend just because a romantic relationship didn't work out. 

I just liked my life the way it was and this is going to be a very big adjustment.