it's been what, 6 weeks? Well I'm too exhausted to keep dodging questions so here it goes, my thoughts on Robin Williams' passing and a little about my own battle...
No, suicide is not the answer. but when you're in that mindset, you see no other options. He's been battling it for so long. Nothing else has worked. I can't justify it but it's a serious illness and it wasn't a selfish act. He didn't want to be there. I didn't want to be there. But you feel like you've exerted all of you options and you feel so alone. You feel like you're burdening everyone and it might be painful at first on your loved ones, or fans in his death, because you know they are stronger than you are. You know they will be okay. I woke up in the emergency department nearly 3 years ago because I was to that point. People can tell you they care but actions speak louder then words. My only wish in life is that people finally start being nice to one another. Suicide is never the right answer but if you get to the point of contemplating it, it's very hard to come back from because all you want is to finally be at peace. You're not asking to be happy, just not to feel so alone and in pain.
Yes, we live in a very cruel and selfish world and there's nothing we can do except take care of ourselves because if we don't, everyone else will literally eat us alive. the world, as a whole, is the biggest pile of shit in my opinion, but you can have a wonderful life if you surround yourself with the right people. There's a devastating stigma on mental health issues in our society. It's sad that it has to take a beloved entertainer, like Robin Williams, killing himself to make the rest of the world open their eyes and see how many people are struggling with this same disease every single day. as time goes by, people will forget the suicide part of his death. They'll continue on with their life and be oblivious to how many people are dying from this disease every single day. Which is why I'll never shut my mouth in speaking out as a voice of for mental health awareness. I am lucky to be alive and I thank God every single day that I am alive. The way I live my life is very simple, try to make today just a little better than the day before. if you're in need of someone to talk to, PLEASE send me a message, text, call me, send a carrier pigeon, sky write, I don't care! just reach out to someone first.
I love each and every one of you guys who have been there for me, whether it's crying with me, sending me a message, calling, visits, anything. The way you treat people matters more than you could ever imagine.
No, suicide is not the answer. but when you're in that mindset, you see no other options. He's been battling it for so long. Nothing else has worked. I can't justify it but it's a serious illness and it wasn't a selfish act. He didn't want to be there. I didn't want to be there. But you feel like you've exerted all of you options and you feel so alone. You feel like you're burdening everyone and it might be painful at first on your loved ones, or fans in his death, because you know they are stronger than you are. You know they will be okay. I woke up in the emergency department nearly 3 years ago because I was to that point. People can tell you they care but actions speak louder then words. My only wish in life is that people finally start being nice to one another. Suicide is never the right answer but if you get to the point of contemplating it, it's very hard to come back from because all you want is to finally be at peace. You're not asking to be happy, just not to feel so alone and in pain.
Yes, we live in a very cruel and selfish world and there's nothing we can do except take care of ourselves because if we don't, everyone else will literally eat us alive. the world, as a whole, is the biggest pile of shit in my opinion, but you can have a wonderful life if you surround yourself with the right people. There's a devastating stigma on mental health issues in our society. It's sad that it has to take a beloved entertainer, like Robin Williams, killing himself to make the rest of the world open their eyes and see how many people are struggling with this same disease every single day. as time goes by, people will forget the suicide part of his death. They'll continue on with their life and be oblivious to how many people are dying from this disease every single day. Which is why I'll never shut my mouth in speaking out as a voice of for mental health awareness. I am lucky to be alive and I thank God every single day that I am alive. The way I live my life is very simple, try to make today just a little better than the day before. if you're in need of someone to talk to, PLEASE send me a message, text, call me, send a carrier pigeon, sky write, I don't care! just reach out to someone first.
I love each and every one of you guys who have been there for me, whether it's crying with me, sending me a message, calling, visits, anything. The way you treat people matters more than you could ever imagine.
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